hello again. I am home from uni, sitting on the sofa in my sweaty cycling clothes waiting to go in the shower. MrC has cooked a lovely lasagne. I feel a bit ill today- a bit feverish and sore throat. Hope the dreaded tonsilitis isn’t coming back, I took the full course of antibiotics, honest!
Uni is, well, different. It’s different being back after working in a proper job for over a year. It’s nice to be reading and thinking, but it reminds me of some of the things I don’t like, like long hours and working in isolation. But I do like asking questions and getting results and asking more questions. Asking questions is my favourite thing. I am happy that some of the things I tried to do when studying for 2 years with ferns I’ve managed to do in a couple of weeks in the flowering plant I’m working with now. It makes me feel a little bit better about myself but also a bit sad that I could perhaps have a PhD already, and now I’ll struggle to get a masters. But, i have some sort of new perspective. I know it isn’t the be-all and end-all. I know there are other jobs out there. Being an academic isn’t the only way, and you only realise that when you’re not in academia.
The gunner still thinks I’m fucked up but then I think she is. I don’t hate her so much anymore, I went to see her to clear the air, and I think there are some things about her I don’t like, but then I don’t have to be like her, and there are of course some good characteristics. I feel good not to hate, a bit like getting over my divorce. I know it’s not good to have a supervisor that’s like a mum. Or like my mum.
It’s lovely and sunny here, even if I’m a bit shivery. Summer is nice, long days are nice and makes it easy to get up. I don’t think I will find it so in the winter, nor cycling 18 miles a day if it’s raining.
I am pretty busy as I now have 3 hrs less in my day, and concentrating on getting things done, and I can’t use the internet at uni very much. But I am reading your blogs, even if I am not always commenting. Your posts make me happy and I feel like I’m in touch even if I’m not.
Shower’s free, pie for now.
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There you are! I was on the verge of emailing you to make sure everything was all right. Don’t beat yourself up over not having that PhD yet – did you know I never attended university? You’ve got me beat!
Who is still around? Anyone fun? Or is it all faux-American cowboys and shiz?
I do think of you and wonder how you are doing with all of this. I am glad you took this time to undate us so that we’re not worrying about you. I am sure that with all this extra work and stress your immune system is taking a beating. Try to drink lots of water and get as much rest as you can…now don’t I sound like a mother??? LOL. Take care…you are missed! Hugs, Lori
I know what you mean about school! Hang in there; it will all be okay and definitely worth it =) Lovely that Mr. C is taking care of you and you have your head on your shoulders. Good luck with everything!!!
Do you mean you cycle 18 miles a day?! Other than that, you sound like you have your head on straight these days. Good for you!
I know, I’m getting back to uni in 2 months, after working full-time since the beginnig of this year and I just can’t wait! Finaly I’ll be able to break the monotony!
Yes the contrast between work life and university life is staggering. That is good dedication cycling 18 miles a day. You must stay in great shape doing that. Keep it up!
I’m sorry you’re not feeling well- I hope it passes over quickly and that your summer is less shivery soon.
Lasagna is my favorite meal. Yes university is a very stressful time, about as stressful as it is fun, maybe more of the stressful part… lol As they say, there is no thing as a stupid question, questions are great!
-Kevin
You’re going to do great, even if it feels like a huge time investment, its all for betterment. Good luck with it all sweets ?
oops that was supposed to be a heart not a question mark
Hii, First time exploring your blog, nice to know something about yours, but quite amazed me that you already PhD and struggling for masters, hope you will do it soon best of luck.
I’ve done my PhD last year and I must confess… I miss this kind of lifestyle, but getting master degree demands time. But where can I get enough time to learn more?
Hmmmm. I missed this post! How did this happen? Maybe it coincided with your emails? My one comment is that I’m really glad you can look at the Evil Bitch Woman from Hell in a more realistic light. With some perspective. She certainly has some issues but you don’t have to like her, just accept her for who she is and it sounds like you’re well on the way to doing that. V proud of you. Hope you didn’t come down with the bug again…yuk. Hope you’re just working hard….
Mmmm I love lasagna. I think I will have to make some soon.
I’m sorry to hear that you seem to not be enjoying university so much right now. It definitely is a big change to go from a full time job to university. It is a completely different life style.
Called by to say I miss you and love it when you comment from time to time. Must email when I finsh reports. *sigh*
Looking forward to you coming back soon. Miss your blogs.
Till then,
Jean
“Being an academic isn’t the only way, and you only realise that when you’re not in academia.” – OH my goodness, rarely has a truer thing been said ! *smile* xo
Wake up, it’s March!
Till then,
Jean